Here it is, 6:15 in the am and I am awake. Not for the reason that I’m normally awake at this hour of the day … no, no … Darwin is still fast asleep. Instead this morning I am awake because it is J’s first day of work. He got a job for a small construction company with the potential for serious upward mobility. It’s the best thing around.
But as I got up this morning to make his lunch and send him off to his first day with tons of kisses, I found myself in a little bit of a panic. When he’s out of work I get so accustomed to him being around, and it is so nice. Don’t get me wrong here, the money is … well … an absolute necessity. And it’s also incredibly nice to have him out of my hair. But I just like having him around so much, you know, that it’s hard to give that up. Even if it is the only possibility.
So there you have it. A little momentary confession of weakness as 6:15 in the morning.